October 31, 2008
Vessel
Safe inside your hands you hold me
Pain and tribulations mold me
I try to run away from you
The pain’s too great you put me through
I find myself on my knees to pray
Then you hear the words you long for me to say
Make of me a vessel that you can always use
No matter how you break me, what i win or what i lose
Let me be a vessel pure and holy, perfect in your eyes
Lord, hear me when i cry, for you to make me, a vessel
Deep inside my heart you’ve shown me
Despite all my sins you’ve known me
I try to run away again
I break your heart with all my sin
I fall to you with tear-filled eyes
I run to you with broken heart and cry
Make of me a vessel that you can always use
No matter how you break me, what i win or what i lose
Let me be a vessel pure and holy, perfect in your eyes
Lord, hear me when i cry, for you to make me, a vessel
Make me into what you want for me to be
Oh, lord, may my prayer be
Make of me a vessel that you can always use
No matter how you break me, what i win or what i lose
Let me be a vessel pure and holy, perfect in your eyes
Lord, hear me when i cry, for you to make me, a vessel
Oh lord make me, a vessel
October 18, 2008
It has been a crazy up and down kind of week. I’ve been really exhausted for so long, but apparently I was anemic and didn’t know. Unfortunately, I had to spend tons of money on tests on my heart before they decided to give me a blood test to see if I was anemic. I didn’t know anemia caused your heart to race, otherwise it may have occurred to me. Such is life…
My jv volleyball team won first in the league and first in the tournament tonight. Fun times… Yeah so still kinda exhausted and I have to get up at 4am. I have some interesting things going on that I’ll have to address later.
October 2, 2008
“After every time of exaltation, we are brought down with a sudden rush into things as they really are, where it is neither beautiful, poetic, nor thrilling. The height of the mountaintop is measured by the dismal drudgery of the valley, but it is in the valley that we have to live for the glory of God.” –Oswald Chambers
October 1, 2008
I have really enjoyed the last three books I’ve read (besides my English textbooks)
Unaccustomed Earth by Jhumpa Lahiri –I was so excited to finally see another book out by her. After reading her first two books, I kept checking up on her hoping she would put a new book out. I kept searching and finding nothing, and then finally I saw Unaccustomed Earth I love all of her stories that I have read. I’m not an immigrant, but who cannot relate to feeling out of place? I love her characters, and I challenge those who say that she uses the same characters in all her stories. Yes, the stories were about Bengali people, but there are many out there saying that there is no need to read this book if you’ve read her others. I say that is completely untrue. I actually started getting up earlier because I really wanted to finish the book. Anyone that knows me, knows that is saying a lot. I found myself effortlessly sympathizing with the characters–a good thing as long as I wasn’ t reading in public. 
On Sunday I read Do Hard Things by Alex and Brett Harris I obviously didn’t agree with everything contained in the book. However, I thought it had some amazing ideas. I never ran into the idea that adolescence didn’t have to be the way it was until I had Dr. Zichterman for Child and Adolescent Psychology, and the thought has never left me. These guys did a great job expressing that and giving some very practical ways for teens to get out of their comfort zones and live up to the potential they have.
I am currently reading the Thursday Next series. I just finished Lost in a Good Book by Jasper Fforde. The books are odd. I’ve never read anything quite like them. They aren’t quite in line with my sense of humor, yet I still find them so strangely entertaining. I had heard of them, but never got around to reading them. I have so many books on my to-read list, but my friend Ethan lent me The Eyre Affair to read on the plane over break, and he recently lent me three others that I am working on right now. I recommend the series from what I’ve read so far.
I am also currently reading And the Shofar Blew by Francine Rivers. I like it so far. I think Rivers is an excellent writer at least compared with other current Christian writers.
I’ve been praying about what God would have me to do in the future. I have never lost my great burden for China, but I was 100% sure that God wanted me here in Texas. Lately, I’ve been dying to go back to China again. I’m saving to go this summer, and unless God leads otherwise in the meantime, I plan to stay in Texas til my debt is paid off. At that time, I believe God would have me go into more long term missions–China as far as I know. I’m excited, but trying to “be where I am” for now. I have a goal that I am working toward unless God leads otherwise, and that makes me look forward to the future.
