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The school in TX that I wasn’t really interested in called me back to see if I had a position. I’ll pray about it, but I can’t see myself living 15 minutes from Mexico right now. I think I’d rather take the job in China.

I got a phone call from a principal in Indiana today. I’m sending a resume. We shall see…
My boss at Kindercare is willing to hold my job while I am in China so I’m hoping to let her know soon if I won’t be coming back so they can replace me.

I’m not normally an FFH fan, but I felt like I related to the lyrics of this one when I heard it the other day.

Every Now and Then

Every now and then I get a little wrapped up in myself and
I can’t see You reaching
Every now and then I get a little overwhelmed and
I can’t hear you calling
But you have any ways told me you will always be there
You are only a prayer away

CHORUS:
Every now and then you whisper peace to me
With your tender words- unexpectedly
When I’m at the end taking my last breath
Drowning in my pride I’ve got nothing left
I can see it coming ’round the bend
Yeah, you’re taking me to that place again
Every now and then

Every now and then I get a little tired of my reflection and I want to break the mirror
And every now and then I get blinded by my own perception and-
I need to see you clearer
But you have always told me you will always be there
You are only one prayer away

My pastor mentioned this passage in his sermon today. I love this passage. It never fails to both encourage and convict me
Hebrews 12:1-4 (ESV)

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood

I NEED my own place. I’m losing my mind.

I am SO tired. I have this headache I just can’t seem to beat. It is hard to be patient with 1 and 2 year olds all day long, but it is even harder when you have a headache and aren’t well rested. I have to decide whether I want to return to work at the preschool next year. It is a good job and as frustrating as it has been, I find it fairly rewarding. It isn’t what I prepared to do though, and I’m not adopting it as my new life’s plan. I don’t want to just make a “safe” decision though. It is fairly easy for me to stay here. I don’t want to stay just because it seems to be the safest choice. I don’t feel peace about leaving for any of the choices I’ve considered, but I’m afraid that maybe just my unease about the future is making me over-spiritualize things. I will not feel completely anxiety- free about taking new steps in a new stage of life. That doesn’t really mean I don’t have peace. I can be in God’s will and still feel nervousness and what not. I’m just praying that God will make it clear and not let me run ahead of him or drag my feet if he is moving me forward. I know he will work it out. I’d never before seen so many shut doors as I did when I was looking for a place to student teach. I know if I really am trying to do what he wants that he won’t hide his will from me. I’ve just got to follow him one day at a time and stop trying to force him to meet my mental deadlines.