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So…I had some leads on student teaching. I talked to my friend Craig tonight, my old pastor’s son. He told me that his brother Jeff was principal of the school my bro Tim’s bball team was playing tonight. I talked to Jeff and he said that their English teacher is excellent and has been there since ‘97. I should be able to get in no problem. So if home doesn’t work out, it looks like I’ll be able to go teach at Lebanon. That would be awesome. It is about 1 1/2 hours away from my house and I know probably at least a dozen people that go to church there.

From Chapter 12 of Magician’s Nephew by C.S. Lewis

Digory kept his mouth very tight shut. He had been growing more and more uncomfortable. He hoped that, whatever happened, he wouldn’t blub or do anything ridiculous.

“Son of Adam,” said Aslan. “Are you ready to undo the wrong that you have done to my sweet country of Narnia on the very day of its birth?”

“Well I don’t see what I can do,” said Digory. “You see, the Queen ran away and–”

“I asked, are you ready?” said the Lion.

“Yes,” said Digory. He had had for a second some wild idea of saying, “I’ll try to help you if you’ll promise to help my Mother, but he realized in time that the Lion was not at all the sort of person one could try to make bargains with. But when he had said “Yes,” he thought of his mother, and he thought of the great hopes he had had, and how they were all dying away, and a lump came in his throat and tears in his eyes, and he blurted out:

“But please, please–won’t you–can’t you give me something that will cure Mother?” Up until then he had been looking at the Lion’s great feet and the huge claws on them: now, in his despair, he looked up at its face. What he saw surprised him as much as anything in his whole life. For the tawny face was bent down near his own and (wonder of wonders) great shining tears stood in the Lion’s eyes. They were such big, bright tears compared with Digory’s own that for a moment he felt as if the Lion must really be sorrier about his Mother than he was himself.

So it isn’t looking good for student teaching at home. I’m sure God has something great planned, but I really have no idea what to do. There is still always the possibility of student teaching at Faith in Pembine. That one may work out, but it obviously is not ideal for me. I’m still praying about it, but I’m sad to see that I think God is shutting the door on my being able to teach at home.

So I’m already struggling to keep myself entertained. I’m reading a novel for class and catching up with all the e-mails I fell behind with while I was busy with projects and finals. I really need to go out and do something, but both cars are gone today. I like to stay busy. I’m sure I’ll be less restless when I go up to my grandmother’s house. I’m looking forward to spending quality time with my cousin and her adorable son. Back to e-mailing…

This one goes out to my friend Joe
“For Good” from the Wicked Soundtrack (Everyone should go see Wicked. It is the awesomest show. I’ll be going this summer. Yea!)

I’ve heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I’ve done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know
There’s blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore

Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better.

And because I knew you:
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.

So for all of you that have been wondering why I haven’t been posting, I’ve been working on my Xanga. Xanga is the Northland blog of choice.

I’m not proofreading cuz I’m super busy so hopefully everthing makes sense somewhat.

movie with jenna, shopping with posey and kristin, joyride, ten things i hate about you, sleeping in my quiet trailer, redoing projects, dinner with Em and the fam, hanging out at bernsons, batman begins, sahara, sneakers, 13 going on 30, mona lisa smile, shopping with posey and kristin again, listening to carpenters with my sister, e-mailing friends, ya-ya sisterhood, bath in my nice quiet trailer, freezing rain, stuck on campus, fun times with jenna, everyone returns

My computer crashed. I don’t think that I mentioned that yet. That was quite the setback. I spent a lot of Thanksgiving break trying to recreate some of the projects that were lost. I’m still hoping to get old Lloyd (yes I named my PC) up and running again, but no success as of yet.

A four year friendship started to deteriorate. I didn’t want to end it, but it is a long story. Anyone who really cares can ask me fore details, but for the person’s sake I’m not going to be too specific on here. I had been praying about our relationship because things seemed strained, but he wouldn’t admit anything. I thought for a brief time that things were starting to be back to normal, but about 1/2 way through our 2 hour phone call I realized that things were just not working out between us. I still don’t know what the problem is but the phone call ended with seemingly out of the blue blatant hostility. Our phone call ended 2 minutes before lights out so I had no chance to call him back. I emailed him the next day and told him if he wants to continue our friendship then he can call me or e-mail me, but I’m not going to try to force him to make our friendship work if he is not interested. I haven’t really heard back from him so I’ve been pretty hurt and confused lately. I still am a little. He had been a jerk lately, but I love him and we have been close for 4 years. So it is hard to move on. If he changes his mind though, he can track me down. I’ll be here if he comes around. My poor buddy Jenna has had some rough personal times lately too. Our trailer has been interesting…
Things get better with time, but after being such good friends for so long, there is so much that reminds me of him. I couldn’t decide if I was sad or angry for a while, but after getting some rest over break, I’m handling life a little better. We’ve had some awesome messages in chapel and at Grace as well. God has really been working in my life this semester.

Sorry to disappoint my faithful fans eagerly anticipating my update, but my free time flew out the window yesterday. My friend Kelly came in with her 1 month old adorable baby girl, Camryn. I’ll post a pic later when I’m in the lab. I hung out with her in the Grind for 2 hours or so and then I had to go study for my Poetry test before Orchestra rehearsal. After rehearsal I went straight to dinner and then my buddy Jenna and I went to the jr. voice recitals. After that I went straight to work and then straight to prayer group. So I had a fuller day than I had anticipated.

Hey. Life’s been so crazy lately. I think that I’ll actually have some free time today to write an update. I know you are all dying to catch up with what is going on in my life.